Get Lost To Get Found...
I used the pain... And reached a next level...
For three years, approximately I gave birht to this space...
This was my shrine, my sanctuary... Where I could come and wander on my thoughts, ideas, plans without guilty or interference of nothing or nobody.... A place just for me...
... And Jack.
Only Jack knows how much I suffered, how much I gone deep In the well of regrets, sorrow and disillusion...
Only Jack had the rope that could pull me up from there... And for three long years he tried.... Over and over again....
... And he made It...
So I came up, looked foward and kept moving on... Bringing with me the memory of the person I loved most... The person that Jack tried to rip out of my mind for these three years...
But I couldn't get rid of the thoughts... I couldn't and I didn't want It...
The love that I felt was way more greater than the desire to move on...
... And then, something happened...
My life changed completely... And now, I can say I'm a man full of joy and happiness...
I sincerely don't know how long It will last... I'll work hard to make this last for all my entire life!
I'm felling alive like never before!
I would like to thank Dr. Durden and Mr. riddle for the support...
And a special thanks to Jack... I wouldn't made this far without you!
I dreamed with something I wanted to write down here all this time but I never got the right...
... Until this day!
It's enough...
We're done with all that bullshit...
We're tired of all that...
We're tired of faking situations, pretending a scenario that we both know that Isn't real...
This Is a very delicated situation... We could get hurt... BADLY...
All of that, for all this time... THAT was the fake... THIS Is what Is up!
So let us embrace this, together... Maybe accepting this Is the last missed link on the chain...
And I know that will be very difficult to ourselves to accept this totally... We've been molding ourselves so strongly that for us to change suddenly will be pratically impossible...
What Is exposed to us, the proposal here Is EXACTLY to throw away EVERYTHING that we've trained all this time...
And you gotta understand that and be strong minded...
The fear of being hurt will always exist, my child... But DO NOT let this suffocate what Is expected to be done!
And now we have...
So be It!
The deadline has come...
A new retirement has begun...

Yesterday I've asked to the stars to show me a sign...
The stars never lied to me... Ever...
Not even let me on my own when I asked for some guidance...
The only problem Is that I never was known as a patient person...
There Is the sign... What about now? How to proceed? My time Is short...
I know that, In the end, I will always know what to do and how to do...
And now I just need to be what I am NOT: A patient man...
" - Por favor, não seja tão rígido...
- Eu te dei um prazo... Confirma?
- Eu...
- CONFIRMA?
- Sim...
- E eu estou respeitando o seu prazo... Use o seu tempo como bem quiser...
- Tudo bem mas não depende só de mim...
- FODA-SE! Você vai querer mesmo ficar esperando pra sempre??? Hahahahaha Você é muito mais imbecil do que eu tinha pensado...
- Mas agora que estamos tão perto...
- NÃO! VOCÊ está perto... Eu não queria nem estar aqui, pra início de conversa! Você me criou com APENAS um objetivo, assuma alguma responsabilidade, porra!
- Eu não sei se vou aguentar o resultado do que você promete fazer...
- Tenho quase certeza que não... Mas já cansei de ser feito de babaca e de te ver sendo feito de babaca...
- Suas decisões estão sendo muito duras...
- Porque se faz necessário tomar medidas desta natureza...
- Aquela depressão... Eu posso cair nela novamente!
- Justamente... É por isso que estou fazendo isso... Pra evitar que aconteça aquilo de novo...
- Mas os resultados do que eu to fazendo só vão aparecer após o seu prazo! Você sabe disso! Não faz isso, você pode estragar algo que pode acontecer de verdade!
- PORRA! PÁRA! Pára com essa merda! Analisa a porra da situação! Faz o seguinte, vamos fazer de conta de que deu certo e que o que você fez gerou um resultado positivo... E agora, como vai proceder?
- Eu vou dar um jeito...
- Não, você vai cagar tudo novamente e sabe disso... Então, pra evitar isso, o plano seguirá como acordado entre nós...
- Mas e se der certo após o prazo?
- Não te compete... Eu decido o que vou fazer...
- Não faz isso comigo...
- Você chega a ser patético às vezes... É assim, como esse espírito de viado, que você quer que eu te deixe mais alguns dia à frente disso tudo? Hahahaha Você acaba de me dar a confirmação de que eu REALMENTE devo fazer o planejado... E o melhor de tudo é que você sabe... "

Clock's ticking... Time's running out...
Use your little time that you still got and think...
But think fast....
And think wisely...
Is up to you to decide how It's gonna end...
Because we all know how It's gonna begin...
(...)
- Madness... A little bit of madness... You definetly need It... I can prescript some insanity as well... Do NOT make objectives, please... It can ruin the treatment... No plans, no failures... Expectation leads to frustration, remember this golden rule! You also need to be unpredictable... Mystery needs to be a part of you... I will refer you to Mr. Riddle, he can help you with that part... Occupy your mind, think about you and only you... Here you go, follow these steps I've told you and return in a couple of weeks...
As usual, November always brings us surprises...
You've been through many things... All this time I was preparing you for the war that we didn't imagine It could actually happen......
And you supressed me! On the most critical moment YOU JUST SET ME ASIDE!
WHAT THE FUCK!
Are you retarded?
You've created me only AND ONLY for this... And when It happens, you ignore me??
You've got fucked because yourself! You got blind! You lost this battle! YOU!
I don't give a shit anymore... You are so disrespectful...
Yea, thanks to me you still have a little chance...
And hey, I'm taking the control again...

(...) - I'm not my fucking khakis...
- Good to hear... Did you learn?
- Sure thing...
- Aye... One step closer...

On this very day from the very pits of depths...
Yea, aye... Should I worry about It?
Inccubus?
Finalmente você deu uma dentro...
Fiquei um pouco assustado no inicio, mas depois vi que era só a empolgação...
Muito bem, agora você está um passo mais próximo do fim do poço, meu jovem...
Remember, your FOOL:
You're not special!
You're not how much money you have in the bank...
You're not the car you drive...
You're not the content of your wallet...
You're not your fucking khakis...
You're not your fucking khakis...
You're not your fucking khakis...


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